JUST LIFE LATELY

JUST LIFE LATELY

Oh well, hello there, readers! This is the first blog of 2023. As you can read from the title, this blog is simply just a life update. Me writing this is an indication that lately, life is good, everything around me is going well, and I am in a much better place. You know, I don’t feel stressed because it’s still our semestral break and there’s no academic stuff going on. I don’t overthink things like I usually do. I’m so tired of overthinking, especially things that aren’t happening and probably won’t ever happen, so I thought and searched for some ways on how to lessen that. I mastered the art of having the conscious effort to not think about things and divert my attention to something else. Fortunately, it works.

What an introduction. It’s already too much but we are just starting. The problem is, where do I start? HAHAHA.

Let’s just begin with my hobbies. I have quite a lot of time to do them because of our vacation but for me, the main reason why I am able to get back to my hobbies is, again, I am in a better headspace or disposition or whatever you call it. I know you know what it is. Because looking back, in the past months, I have spare time, but I don’t spend them on my hobbies because I am just too stressed that it was so chaotic and dark that all I wanted to do was sleep. And now that I am okay, I am back, too.

First, reading. I just finished A Murder is Announced by Agatha Christie and I’m currently reading They Do It with Mirrors. Both of these are from the same series, Miss Marple. These are crime mysteries and I just enjoy reading something like this because, well, aside from these being written really amazingly by Agatha Christie, these also make my heart beats so fast when they start solving the mysteries. I’m sure those of you who read something like this knows this feeling. Another thing about reading is it makes me excited when I think about starting a new book and looking forward to new characters, settings, plots, lessons, and words I encounter for the first time which enhances my vocabulary.

Second, games. For more than a week now, I downloaded Farm Ville 2 and it’s a good past-time. As a competitive human being, I always land on Rank 1 or 1^st place whenever there are events. And, as a business-minded person, I am able to save millions of moneys on the game because what I do is buy goods from other players and sell these for a greater yet reasonable amount. It’s simply buy-and-sell. It’s fake money but whatever. Sadly, I think I have to uninstall it when the second semester starts because I have to focus and eliminate distractions as much as I can. I’ll just save my account so I can get back when there’s a chance.

Third, fashion designing. I have been vocal that my ultimate dream is to become a fashion designer so to work on that, I design digitally through Adobe Illustrator. I practice so that if someday I’d be given a chance to pursue my dream, at least I have an idea of how to. Right now, what I do is I will have a theme and I will search on the internet for some pieces of clothing and put them together in my digital sketch. I can spend literally three straight hours just doing that until my back hurts and my eyes feel sleepy. But it’s fun!

Fourth, sewing. If I want to be a fashion designer, obviously I have to be good at sewing. Guys, I finished adjusting three pairs of trousers! These trousers were pending for like more than five months and this is the only time I was able to finish them. I even forgot that I have pending trousers to work on, so I ordered trousers online. Luckily, I ordered a beige one and the three pairs of trousers I finished are in color white, gray, and black. So, I’m really lucky ‘coz the one I ordered isn’t in the same color as the trousers I adjusted.

Fifth, working out. For almost three weeks now, I am consistently working out even though sometimes it’s just a quick workout because I have other things to do for that day. My parents are even telling me to stop because I get skinny, but I told them that I am eating a lot right now because I am not stressed anymore so it’s just a good balance. One time, when I was with my friends, I absentmindedly said I do a two-minute plank and they were literally asking me if I was sure of that. They are doubtful if I can do that. Aaron said that he can’t even stand 20 seconds of planking ‘coz he’s already shaking. Should I be proud of myself? I really think that a two-minute plank isn’t impressive but well so be it. I sound like a pick-me girl. HAHAHA

Sixth, shopee. Online shopping is really therapeutic. For almost a week now, I receive parcels every day and, in a day, it is not just a parcel but parcels. With an “S”. You know the feeling when you receive your parcels? You get excited, there is instant happiness, and it makes your day better like all your problems are blown away. Of course, the only problem is money. HEHE

I think that is everything. Well, I just have to share that another indication that I am okay is I am active on social media. Because when I am stressed and having mental breakdowns, I want to shut the world off. I want to deactivate all my socials. I want to be alone. I want to detach from people. You know, self-isolation. Because in my mind, I don’t want to be a burden to anyone. But there are people who will make you feel like it’s a pleasure for them to be “bothered” by you and that you don’t have to face what you are going through alone.

Thinking about what I wrote above, if I do these things every day, it seems so boring. And maybe, it is. It’s calm. There are no things going on. It is just me enjoying myself, doing the things I love, and focusing on self-growth. But you know what is present in those “plain” and “boring” days? It is peace.

Lately, I am enjoying my life. I am not forcing anything from anyone. I provide myself with what I require. I am happy with myself, and my happiness doesn’t depend on anyone. I love myself in the way I would want other people to love me.

And the most important is, I am too excited about life, even about the bits of it. I know it’s a hypocritical thing to say but I am excited to go back to school although I know I’ll be experiencing lots of mental stress, academic breakdowns, sleepless nights, skipping meals, weight loss, and galas I won’t be able to attend. But I still bought cute school supplies! My boyfriend even bought me a school bag as an advanced Valentine’s gift! I am so excited to use them, guys.

Another thing that excites me is the fact that I have very few subjects left, and I would be able to finish my degree. I saw them yesterday or was that the other day? But anyway, when I saw it, I wanted to cry because I am so close to the finish line. It motivated me and I literally told myself that with a little more push, I am done. I am also proud of myself for how far I already am. Years ago, I was just praying to pass this course, and now, three semesters to go and I’ll be a degree holder. Just wow. I can’t believe it.

This blog is now too long so I am finishing it here. I am thinking of what I should write as Valentine’s entry. I wanted to do like a fast talk, the one I did with my classmates. You can see it in the “Living Legends” section. But this time, it’s with my boyfriend. I didn’t mention it to him yet. But after he reads this, I hope he agrees. If I don’t have Valentine’s entry, it means he didn’t agree. Hays, ang hina ko naman sa kaniya kung ganon. HAHAHAHA

That’s it, guys. I’ll end the blog here. I had so so so much fun writing this. I hope you enjoyed reading it. May you accept the fact that in life, it is what it is. Always protect your peace. ‘Til the next blog. Mwa.

Minalin – 01/30/2023 – 7:11 PM